Does Apartheid Still Exist at UCT?

Definitely not my best work ever (papers in South Africa aren't supposed to be eloquently written, they're supposed to get your point across), but still an interesting subject nonetheless. The video was part of my non-standard submission, and is of me walking from the bottom of Lover's Walk (close to the bottom of Lower Campus) up to Upper Campus. Think about how the mountain serves as a reference for much of the campus, and think about how gaining elevation creates a sense of aloofness and removal from the rest of Cape Town. And that song - I'm gonna make it blow up all over the US once I get back.
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Being a white, American student at a university located in a city still overcoming the atrocities of apartheid gives me a perspective different than most. Not feeling connected to either the past or to a certain subgroup of society allows me to look objectively at how people behave. The city of Cape Town itself still is rooted in apartheid: the way in which it is spatially constructed, with rich white communities located at the foot of Table Mountain and poorer black townships sprawled across the Cape Flats, makes it difficult for Capetonians to escape the legacy of apartheid in their day-to-day lives. As a result of forced removals, it is tough for those living in Cape Town to achieve true integration. If you were to talk to the higher-ups at the University of Cape Town, I bet they would have you believe that this wasn’t the case at UCT; that UCT was a race-neutral space in which everyone was truly equal. However, after spending a semester at UCT and observing the way in which people behave here, I firmly believe that this institution still has remnants of apartheid engrained into it. As a result, I argue that, to some palpable extent, apartheid, in its literal sense of the word (separateness), still exists at the University of Cape Town.

The motivation for this study doesn’t require much explaining. It’s important to understand the dynamics of the space you are occupying, especially if it is an unfamiliar space. I go to a small school of 1400 in the United States, and being part of a student body of upwards of 20,000 gives you a totally different perspective. I wanted to get a firm grasp on student life at the University of Cape Town, and saw no better way to do it than to conduct a study examining how narratives of the past are (or are not) still present today. Universities are heralded as spaces of progressiveness and of forward thinking, and I wanted to see if this was the case at UCT, an especially interesting task in post-apartheid South Africa.

To examine the question of whether or not apartheid still exists at the University of Cape Town, our group took a three-fold approach. First, we did a study of the architecture and spatial makeup of the campus. It is certain that the way a space is constructed dictates the way people behave in that space, either knowingly or subconsciously, and so understanding the structural design of UCT was crucial. Next, we looked at student behavior on campus. We were looking to see if black students sat only with other black students on the Jammie steps, or if white students walked to class only with other white students, or if coloured students ate only with other coloured students, etc. If this was the case, it could be argued that segregation was still prevalent at UCT. We also examined enrollment in different faculties based on race: was one faculty relatively dominated by black students, while another relatively dominated by whites? If so, it would indicate institutional segregation. Lastly, we asked several students if they thought that apartheid still existed at the University of Cape Town. We left the question intentionally broad so that it was open to individual interpretation. Analyzing these three different dynamics allowed us to better evaluate to what extent apartheid still exists at the University of Cape Town.

Originally founded by an act of Parliament in 1916, the University of Cape Town moved to its current location in Rondebosch in 1929. The institution was constructed as a site of prospect; it self-consciously exists apart from society and is placed on a hill so that students may “look down” on the rest of Cape Town (Shepherd). When you walk the campus of the University, you’re supposed to feel in awe of the space you’re walking. Many of the buildings exhibit Rhodesian architecture, displaying symmetrical windows and columns that create a sense of order and rigidity. The campus is organized around the Summer House, the little white building right by the freeway (Shepherd). Originally, the highway didn’t exist, and you could continue walking from the Summer House straight up to the steps of Jameson Hall. You were supposed to start your walk to campus from the bottom of Lover’s Walk and walk in a straight line all the way to the very top of campus, gaining elevation the entire time. Walking this very path, you notice that the entire campus is constructed in reference to Devil’s Peak – the Summer House is perfectly lined up with it, as is the statue of Cecil Rhodes that sits at the top of the rugby field, as is Jameson Hall, the center of Upper Campus. Jameson Hall was constructed as a “temple on a hill”, and was modeled to be an exact copy of the Jefferson Library at the University of Virginia (Shepherd). All of these factors give the campus an air of aloofness and strict order. If we accept the argument that the way a space is constructed dictates the way people behave in that space, it is hard for students to escape the colonial implications of the University of Cape Town.

Nick Shepherd speaks about the University of Cape Town as three universities in one: the colonial University (from its founding until 1948), the apartheid University (from 1948 – 1994), and today’s University. He notes that today, there is a sense of simultaneity or co-presence of the “old” Universities with the “new” one (Shepherd). He doesn’t even have a name for today’s University, as he cannot distinguish how the University has fundamentally changed as the result of the end of apartheid. Combining this idea with the above idea about people’s behavior, we arrive at the bleak reality that there are still structural remnants of apartheid at today’s University.

When you walk around campus, student segregation is almost immediately palpable. You’ll predominantly see whites walking to class only with other whites, or blacks eating lunch only with other blacks. Though the Jammie steps serve as a race-neutral meeting ground for all, you’ll often find that there are subgroups of uniform race scattered across the steps. Why does this happen? One likely explanation is that students feel more comfortable associating with other students of the same race. This isn’t the case only in South Africa; the same holds true at many American universities, but people are less willing to talk about it there. This may not be a reflection of white oppression of black and coloured students; students may simply feel like they have more in common with other students of their same race. However, it is hard to ignore years and years of oppression, and it is possible that students today still inhabit their parents’ views, contributing to racial segregation on campus.

Perhaps more notably, racial segregation is evident in enrollment in the different faculties. Humanities and Law tend to be dominated, relatively, by white students, while Commerce, Engineering, and Science have significantly higher relative percentages of black students. Though there are uniformly more white students than black students enrolled in every faculty, this reflects the fact that there are nearly twice as many white students as black students at the University of Cape Town. There are two different likely explanations for this discrepancy in enrollment. First, English is a second language for many black students. Humanities and Law classes tend to be more reading intensive than Commerce, Engineering, and Science classes, thus making these classes more inaccessible to black students. The language of math is universal, and is thus understood by all. Second, jobs associated with Commerce, Engineering, and Science majors are considered to be more professional than those associated with Humanities and Law. Many black students are coming from disadvantaged backgrounds, and want to chase higher paying, more secure jobs so they can provide for their families. White students, on the other hand, often come from more privileged backgrounds, and can afford to study subjects in which they have no intentions of making a career, as they will be supported by their families.

This institutional separation poses several problems. First, it makes it harder for students of different races to work together in the classroom, and hopefully foster relationships that linger outside the classroom. Second, primary and secondary schooling for black students is of substantially poorer quality than that of whites across South Africa, especially in maths and sciences. This makes it more difficult for blacks, as they want to enroll in faculties that they deem more professional, but they don’t have the necessary skills to succeed in that area. Overall, it is impossible to deny the institutional and spatial segregation observed at the University of Cape Town.

Perhaps the most important aspect of our study was student interviews. Even if the legacy of apartheid is engrained in the University through its architecture and institutional segregation, how students feel is the key marker for judging whether or not apartheid still exists at UCT. We are most concerned with how students feel, for if they believe that true integration and equality exists on campus, the institutional and architectural aspects of apartheid don’t carry as much weight. If, however, black students feel that they are awarded fewer opportunities than white students, it is an important indicator that apartheid still has holdovers on today’s University.

We interviewed both black and white students, both from inside South Africa and foreigners, and the results confirmed our beliefs: black students feel that the legacy of apartheid still plays a role in campus life today, while white students feel that the University is a space of equality for all. Several students noted that white students tend to hang out with only white students, black students hang out with only black students, etc., going as far as saying “segregation on this campus is definitely evident”. This carries into the classroom, too, where one student, Shanda, told us that whites tend to sit in the back of the classroom together, and that black students will sit in the front few rows since many of them are on bursaries and want to honor them to the fullest extent. Busi, from South Africa, suggested that campus disparities today are dictated more by class than by race, but that class is an extension of race. “People just need to get outside their comfort zones”, she told us, “and hang out with new people”. One white student, Colin, observed institutional segregation in the classroom. He said that there are almost no black kids in any of his humanities classes, and thought that black students tended to stick to sciences and engineering. Colin acknowledged that segregation is present to some extent on the campus of UCT, but noted that UCT is far more integrated than the University of Stellenbosch. He attributed the limited segregation to the fact that, “Black and white people have different cultures, so they function within their own groups.”

Considering that whites were (and still are) the beneficiaries of apartheid practices, it’s unsurprising to find that their opinions on whether or not apartheid still exists differ from those of the black students. This is especially troubling, given that those in a position to change the culture at the University of Cape Town (i.e. the executive board) are mostly white. Therefore, it’s unlikely that a fundamental change in campus culture towards equality will come from the top; it needs to come from shifting attitudes of the student body. One student echoed this sentiment, and said that it will take at least one more generation before we really see integration, since hopefully by then racism won’t be engrained into the minds of students.

The word “apartheid”, translated literally from Afrikaans, means “separateness”. In this sense, though apartheid isn’t legally instituted anymore, its legacy still has real effects on South Africa today, even at the University of Cape Town. Though students may not realize it, there is no doubt that they are subconsciously affected by the Rhodesian architecture of campus. Segregation of students, both socially and institutionally, is a reality of student life at UCT. Students of all color will acknowledge this fact, but white students will tend to attribute it to the existence of different, but equal, cultures. Black students, on the other hand, will mostly argue that segregation is a result of the institutionalization of the legacy of apartheid. Though it is hard to totally escape the past, given that the present reflects learned histories of the past, we hope that with time students will undergo a fundamental shift in attitude and start looking at everyone as truly being equal. Only then can we achieve true integration, both at the University of Cape Town, and throughout all of South Africa.

Songs of Myself

This month's playlist is a bit more diverse than last month's - I've had a few different phases I've gone through during the month. What started off with west coast jazz transformed into down home dirty blues, and eventually melded into new-age African music. But all of it comes together to make up my playlist for October 2010.

Syeeda's Song Flute - John Coltrane, Giant Steps
Mama Tried - Grateful Dead, Skull & Roses
What Is Life - George Harrison, All Things Must Pass
Po Black Maddy - North Mississippi Allstars, Shake Hands With Shorty
Skinny Woman - North Mississippi Allstars, Shake Hands Wih Shorty
He's Gone - Grateful Dead, Dick's Picks Vol. 21
Sibuyele 915 - Amampondo, Feel The Pulse of Africa
You Ain't Goin' Nowhere - Bob Dylan & The Band, The Basement Tapes

A few quick notes: Amampondo is my African Instruments teacher's first band, Nelson Mandela's favorite. I've got a few CDs of theirs, but my favorite is Feel The Pulse of Africa, a great live recording. Sibuyele 915 is the perfect Sunday afternoon BBQ track.

Album of the month definitely goes to "Shake Hands With Shorty" by the North Mississippi Allstars. These guys just straight bring it. The entire CD has the feel of a live recording, as one song often molds into the next (as is the case with Po Black Maddy > Skinny Woman), but has really raw production on it. This has quickly climbed onto my list of 10 albums I'd bring with me to a desert island. If you don't have it, get it.
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Great Success

Getting a visa for Mozambique requires that you have a passport valid for 6 months after the date of departure from the country. I'm leaving Mozambique on November 3rd, my passport expires on February 5th. You do the math. I have a plane ticket to Mozambique already, despite this problem. My dad was not thrilled with my decision to get the ticket without assurance that I would have a visa. Well, Dad, worry no longer. I went to the Mozambique Embassy today and they issued me a visa, no problem. Either they don't know about the regulation, or they just don't care. Either way, one thing is for certain: I am getting into Mozambique.

Land of endless beaches, fresh seafood, whale-shark and manta-ray SCUBA diving, and cheap women (I'll let you decide which of those I made up) here I come!

The Drakensberg

What better time to pick up and leave Cape Town for a short vacation than right in the middle of the second-to-last week of classes? I only wound up missing one full day of classes (since I don’t have Friday class and my classes were cancelled one day), but my two friends who came with me skipped three full days to make the trek out to Drakensberg, located in the province of kwaZulu-Natal. We hopped on the plane to Durban on Wednesday morning and had arrived by 2 pm. After a massive feast of authentic Indian food (Durban is known for it’s high Indian population) and a quick journey around the city, notably down to the beach, we jumped in our car and headed for the city of Underberg, located at the foot of the Sani Pass.

The drive to Underberg was treacherous – I’m still not entirely accustomed to driving on the left side of the road (though you don’t have much choice but to adjust), am not the world’s best stick driver (save your comments, Dad), and, to top it off, there was thick fog for a huge part of the journey. And I mean THICK – I could barely see 10 feet in front of me, and was following the reflectors in the middle of the road. Thankfully, there were no sudden turns, and after four hours we arrived safely in Underberg (though it should’ve taken only two and a half).

We arrived late Wednesday night in Underberg, and given the fog and the darkness we had no idea what the landscape looked like. Waking up in the morning was one of those “wow” experiences – we were clearly no longer in Cape Town. Mountains surrounded us on every side as far as the eye could see. My friend Nick mentioned that he felt like we were in the Swiss Alps, I thought it was a bit like Tibet or Nepal (shout out to Erin Phelps!), but either way, we were definitely out there. We spent Thursday driving the Sani Pass, the only drivable path between South Africa and Lesotho (more on Lesotho soon). I’m very glad we decided to hire a driver to drive the Sani for us – it requires a 4x4 and tons of experience. You see cars flipped over on the side of the windy road as you ascend into Lesotho. We took our time getting up the Sani, stopping to take in its majestic beauty along the way. The drive was certainly highlighted by the Twelve Apostles (the name of one of the ridges of mountains along the side of the Sani) and learning about smugglers. A few Besotho people (people from Lesotho) make a living by hiking through the mountains around the Sani Pass and smuggling up to 30 kg of weed at a time – yes, that’s almost 70 pounds of weed – on their backs. Obviously the South African border patrol is smoking their shit, otherwise they’d be aware enough to stop them from getting it in – these smugglers literally walk within 200 meters of the border post and rarely have problems. Once we got to the top of the Sani, we were met with one hundred kilometer per hour winds (according to our guide, you know it’s 100 km / h when you can’t walk straight into it), a strict border patrol (you’re not allowed to take pictures there, but that didn’t stop me), and the Sani Top Chalet – the highest pub in Africa. We stopped for drinks on the way back into South Africa – now I can say I’ve had a drink while being as high as you can be in Southern Africa. (Read carefully, family members, it’s not what you think it means.)

The Twelve Apostles at the Sani Pass

Brother Jack makes it all the way to Africa's highest Pub

Anyway, now I’ve probably sparked your interest in Lesotho. What’s that? You’ve never heard of Lesotho? It’s a tiny little country totally inside of South Africa – if you didn’t know better you’d think it was just another province. Lesotho is the only southern African country that was never successfully colonized (due to its mountainous terrain: more than 75% of Lesotho sits at over 2000 meters above sea level, and the mountains act as a natural border keeping out invaders, think China style), and has managed to remain an independent monarchy throughout its history. When you enter Lesotho, you feel like you’ve travelled 100 years back in time: there’s no electricity throughout the entire country (except for the capital), and so there’s no phone lines, no internet, no TV, no heat except for fires (a huge problem, given that it’s fucking freezing that high up and people have open fires inside their huts made with mud and cow dung walls and floors, and thatched-wood ceilings, you do the math). For a good portion of the year, women live alone in these huts, called rondawels, taking care of up to six children, despite only have one bed. These children will sleep in the bed with their mom (if they’re lucky) or, most likely, wind up on the floor. Men, from the age of 14, spend these months in isolation in the mountains sheering sheep – they each live in their own rondawel, living only on a huge bag of maize meal (to make pap, similar to grits). They will travel to the villages (which are run by women, since all the men are gone) to trade with the women for random goods: homemade beer, bread, warmer clothes, etc. They pretty much will not eat any fruits or vegetables. Think about the nutrient deficiencies – someone you think is 40 will turn out to be 17. According to Wiki, Lesotho has the 5^th lowest life expectancy of any country at arousing 42.6 years, and is one of the only countries in which men are expected to live longer than women, on average. It’s also the 9^th poorest country in the world. Seeing how these people live was really eye opening – this is the Africa that most westerners think about (though don’t get me started on Western perceptions of Africa – did you know it’s just one big country and that lions walk around in the streets?). A really humbling experience, even though I was only there for a few hours and only saw one village.

Inside the Besotho hut

After returning from the Sani Pass, we got in our car and set out for Bergville, about 3 hours north of Underberg. Underberg is considered Southern Drakensberg, while Bergville is Northern Drakensberg. We stayed at a hostel called Amphitheatre Backpackers on the recommendation of my friend Matt Misbin (who had stayed there on his travels in South Africa), and upon arrival we knew it would be super chill. The dude working the desk, Josh, was a big goofy white dude with dreadlocks. We pretty much instantly found out he is originally from Observatory (about a 10 minute walk from Mowbray, where my dorm is) and we bonded over Wednesday night 2-for-1 drinks at Stones. We chatted with him for a while before going to sleep early in preparation for our hike the next day.

On Friday, we hiked to the top of The Amphitheatre and to Tugela Falls, the second highest waterfall in the world (meaning it starts at the second highest elevation, not it’s the second biggest drop, but they definitely get you if you don’t realize what they’re talking about). The view up there is supposed to be unbelievable, and from the pictures I’ve seen, it really looks like it. We were not so lucky with the weather, though, and the fog kept us from seeing even 30 feet in front of us. It was also cold and rainy – three out of the ten people on our hike turned back – but the hike was still pretty cool. It was especially rewarding when the clouds would break for just a bit and you could get the slightest idea of the rock formations around you. The picture below is what it was supposed to look like – I only wish I had seen it first hand. The coolest part of the hike was going down two sets of chain ladders, maybe the most serious ladders I’ve ever been on. At each set of ladders you had two choices: one that was anchored into the rocks at every rung, and one that was only anchored in at the top and in a select few places along the way, meaning the ladders were swinging free. Take a wild guess at which one I did. One of the key things I’ve learned in Africa: I’m only 20 for so long, I’m supposed to be doing stupid shit like this now and not when I’m older, I may as well do it while I’m here. On our drive back to the hostel it started to hail (but I thought Africa was all desert where it was 100 degrees every day and jungles where you can see rhinos everywhere you turn!), but thankfully we were covered. The hike was a bit disappointing, given how cool it could have been, but such is life.

What the Amphitheatre was supposed to look like

Zach on the ladders

The next day, instead of doing a hike through our hostel, we did our own day hike on Josh’s recommendation (he told us it was his favorite day hike in the entire Drakensberg). It was a much clearer day, and we could finally get a sense of the grandness of the ‘Berg. We started off by hiking along a level path around a bunch of mountains (when you think of Drakensberg, this is what you think of) until we reached Rainbow Gorge, which we slowly prodded our way up to the top of. The path was crazy and involved a lot of bouldering and rock climbing, as well as creativity in making your way up, and was a really cool hike. It almost felt like we had left South Africa and had arrived in a Costa Rican jungle, minus the rally monkeys and the extreme temperatures. The end of it was a straight scramble up a river – I definitely fell in and got my feet really wet – and we knew we had reached the end when we physically could not go any more because of a huge rock wall. The coolest part of this hike was definitely arriving at what we deemed The Giant Rock. A really creative name, I know. This rock was trapped between the two sides of the gorge and was suspended about 8 feet above the ground. It was pretty damn cool to see in person (we’d seen a picture of it the night before), and, of course, we took photos of us “holding it up”. On our trek back to the car, the clouds hovering over the highest mountains broke and revealed snow – that’s right, snow in Africa at the beginning of the summer. Very unexpected.

Damn my camera gets nice colors

I haven't been working out, I swear

Sunday arrived quicker than we had thought possible (this seems to be a recurring theme – how is it possible that I only have one month left here?), and we had to make our way back to Durban to get on our plane back to Cape Town. I woke up Sunday morning with food poisoning and felt like shit, so Nick, despite having only driven stick a few times in his life, manned up and got behind the wheel and got us back to Durban safely. Can he now tell people that he can drive stick? I’d say so – if he can make a 3-hour drive on the wrong side of the road without getting us killed, he’s good in my book.

Overall the trip was a huge success. We had a very chilled vacation (we decided to do Drakensberg instead of Namibia because Namibia would have required a lot more driving and a lot more sticking to a schedule) and saw some really cool shit. Leaving Cape Town makes you realize how influenced by Europe Cape Town truly is. It also makes you realize how spatially segregated it still is. While in Cape Town, I don’t entirely feel like apartheid is a thing of the past (in fact, I’m doing a project for one of my classes on whether or not apartheid still exists at UC). However, I never had that looming feeling while in Durban or anywhere in the Drakensberg. It’s crazy how the most progressive and developed city in all of South Africa (Cape Town) is still also the deepest rooted in apartheid.

One random final note: one of the guys working at the South Africa border patrol told me I looked like Jesus. I’ve now gotten Jesus, Mr. Moses (from that guy on Table Mountain), and Chuck Norris (from the kids who I taught baseball to while volunteering). I’m still waiting on Abe Lincoln. Why would I ever shave?

Are You Ready For Some Football?

When I was deciding which semester I would go abroad I had two key factors to consider. If I went abroad in the fall, I'd miss football season. If I went abroad in the spring, I'd miss the Beer League playoffs. Ultimately, I decided that I only have the chance to play in the Beer League playoffs a few times in my life, and I could watch football for the rest of my life, and as such I would go abroad in the fall. Little did I know how crippling not having football would be.

I've watched football every single Sunday I've been at Pomona College. I've watched football every single Sunday for as long as I can remember. I always find a way - even if I'm out skiing - to watch the games. I hoped that it would be the same in South Africa - maybe I'd be able to stream the games over the internet? (Haha, in retrospect this is hilarious, internet here is so slow it's a joke and you have to pay for the amount of bandwidth you use, so streaming a game would cost me a fortune.) But, as the first Sunday of the NFL season passed without me seeing a second of action, I knew I was in for it. I even tried staying up until 2:30 am on the first Monday night of the season to watch the Jets vs. Ravens on ESPN, since my dorm has a television. Much to my dismay, ESPN was showing rain-delay tennis instead of Monday Night Football. I was furious! But, deep down, I understood that there isn't much of an audience for football down here, and I begrudgingly accepted that I would have to wait until Thanksgiving to get my first taste of some pigskin.

I'm not sure what prompted me, but last night I decided I had to try again. I went to sleep early, woke up at 2, and went down to the TV room. I switched the TV to ESPN, and before the picture could even load I heard the defining "Bom bom bom bom" of the Monday Night Football theme song. I threw up my arms in a Johnny Drama-esque fashion with a loud "VICTORY!". I couldn't believe it - real football! One of the happiest moments of my study abroad experience thus far.

(On a semi-tangent, every single commercial throughout the game was for ESPN. I mean EVERY SINGLE ONE. Be it for the upcoming NBA season, a scrimmage between the Lakers and FC Barcelona this Friday, Spanish League soccer, ESPN's soccer website, ESPN's cricket website, the MLB playoffs, or the plays of the week, literally every single commercial was ESPN related. I guess it's hard to sell air time at that hour, and that the NFL really doesn't appeal to the average South African.)

Though the game was a blowout, I wound up staying up through the third quarter before crawling into bed around 5:00 am. Did I have a Tuesday morning meltdown? Absolutely. But I could not have cared less - I had tasted the forbidden fruit and borne it's benefits. I remember now why I love America so much - the NFL.

Volunteering...Finally

I wrote earlier in the semester about how I would be volunteering with LEAP, a school in Langa (one of the townships) dedicated to improving the quality of black education, particularly in the areas of math and science. However, due to my schedule, I wasn't able to volunteer at LEAP. I went to talk to the CIEE volunteer coordinator and told her my scheduling problem, and she suggested that I either "not volunteer or change my class schedule" so I could volunteer - both seemed like ridiculous suggestions. (As an aside, the volunteer coordinator is a complete bitch and treated me like shit, and I sent an email to our program director telling him about my experiences with her and how it had made me not want to volunteer, and then about a week later got an email from the volunteer coordinator that simply said "I'm sorry if you felt like I acted disrespectfully towards you" - what a fucking clown.) In the end, I decided not to volunteer with LEAP, and to try volunteering with an organization called PASSOP (People Against Suffering, Suppression, Oppression, and Poverty; an organization devoted to improving refugee rights).

I went to PASSOP a few times, and though I agreed with it's objectives and practices, they did most of their cool stuff at night. I could only make it during the mornings, and the dude there (Braam) was having me edit his papers and reports and to help with fundraising. I wanted my volunteering experience to be one where I could see a direct impact - I wanted to work with the affected people and see their faces. I didn't want to be an intern for this dude, which is what it seemed like I was doing. To top it off, he's a complete socialist and told me that a. Israel is 100% in the wrong for its conflict with Palestine and doesn't deserve to have a homeland, and b. Fidel Castro is one of the greatest modern leaders and that Americans are idiots for not recognizing it. Alas, after a few visits to PASSOP, I decided that it wasn't worth my time, and decided that I wouldn't be returning. I thought my chances for volunteering were totally blown, and I knew that my biggest regret about this semester would be not being able to volunteer.

Last week, though, I got a call from my friend Laura (we bonded over the fact that we're both Mets fans - a bond unlike any other) who asked me if I wanted to help coach some youth baseball team on Saturday. My first thought was "I thought they don't have baseball in this country", but my second thought was "Hell yes!" I wound up going with her to Philippi, another one of the townships, and spent the day with kids aged 4 - 17 playing baseball. The youngest kids had never played before; the oldest had been playing for a few years and were definitely better than I was. I finally had my chance to volunteer - we weren't really coaching these kids, we were more hanging out with them and throwing around a ball and having batting practice and just talking. The youngest kids didn't even know how to catch a ball using a mitt, something which seems completely natural to almost every single American. But as they learn to squeeze the ball when it hits their mitt, and as they succesfully catch four or five balls in a row, you can see their little faces light up. It's really special. This is the volunteering experience I was looking for.

We spent the morning with the younger kids and the afternoon with the older kids. The older kids have a full team of their own (their season starts this coming weekend), and we didn't so much teach them to play as we did a. hang out with them and b. play with them. We played the field while they batted against one of their pitchers, and then had the chance to face their live pitching. This was the first live pitching I had faced since I was 13 - I stopped playing baseball after Majors, and the point of Beer League pitching is to put the ball in a place where you can hit it. Needless to say, I was a bit rusty, and got put in my place immediately: down on strikes in 4 pitches. All the South African kids laughed at me, since they thought I was some great baseball player, but I got over it pretty quickly and they accepted that I was just trying to play some ball like they were. I was accepted as one of them.

I'm hoping to be able to go back a few more times to play with these kids. Though it was fun to actually play with the older kids, I want to work more with the little kidlings. They are hilarious, and watching them learn the game is really special. This has got to be the chillest volunteering opportunity that CIEE could have given us (even though they didn't), and I am looking forward to going back to Philippi.